14 February 2024

I’m still dealing with a cold so this might be short, I also found out this morning that the new house might not have internet for a month so I’m trying to think of what I will have to do to adjust around that when I don’t have energy for it. I guess I’ll go rest after this, nothing else is going on so I can lay down thinking how miserable I am. I see signs of depression in people and people thinking it can be fixed and goes away. I can be happy for a long time and when something bad happens, no matter how small, it can put me in the hole. The hole is always a second away, it doesn’t matter if it’s been years since I’ve seen it, I carry it with me. Another reason I stay on top of people to maintain a positive mindset is because their attitude can easily shift mine. I hope my attitude help lift others, but there’s no shortage of negativity in this world, many an industry is built on it. Keep moving on, that’s all there is to do, tomorrow is another day, the sun will shine again and I can dance in the rain. Being sick is hard to mentally overcome.