With the baby at daycare I still feel disoriented, I’m making rest my priority because I need it and should take advantage of the chance now. For all I know this daycare might not work out or they’ll call me in five minutes to pick up the kid, it’s been awhile since I’ve had time alone. Pet noises around the house send my brain running thinking, “the baby!” We’ve been kicking up dust for three months, now it’s time to settle in. There’s parts of the house and property that I haven’t explored or even thought about since I didn’t have room for it in my brain. I’m still not ready to think about them, but I’m coming to life enough to be aware I have uncharted responsibilities. Of course there’s the mowing, everyday I tell myself I’m going to do it then I rest instead. The reality is the grass isn’t in a bad position yet and I’ve been in a bad position, so taking care of myself is the priority. Mostly that means catching up on sleep, I’m still suffering from my tooth problem until March 25th, hopefully it’ll be solved then. Once I get all these weights off me and recover, I will be a new man, ready to take on all sorts of new weights to break myself off with. I have a beautiful life, that must be remembered, new goals are to keep me active not to beat me down. When an activity gets to stressful, then it’s time to walk away. We are forming a new beginning, I don’t try to force a plan anymore, what is meant to be will unfold. There’s a pool I haven’t touched yet, I had a bad experience with my last pool, this time I’ll get help.
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