Yesterday was rough, hopefully we’ve turned the corner now. With the little princess being sick, she didn’t want to nap, the first attempt was a struggle and the second nap didn’t happen. Each time I try to put her down means 30 plus minutes of holding and rocking the baby. When things are going good she’ll finish a bottle and be falling asleep in under 10 minutes. All that extra work caused a couple of the muscles on my baby holding side to tighten up. Last night I slept on the heating pad to loosen things up. The range of motion in my neck has severally decreased since having kids, maybe some day I will get enough rest and stretching to bring it back. I was really at the end of my rope with the baby though. Usually I can calm a fussy baby down, but when they’re sick, especially an ear infection, they’re crying all the time. Being left alone with a baby that won’t stop crying is soul crushing. No one is coming to help, just have to wait out the storm, while still making sure she’s fed and clean. Often if the baby is sick she will throw up when placed on her back and that means a lot of cleaning, have to replace the sleep sack she’s in, pajamas, and bed sheets. There’s also the dilemma of whether or not to do this work in the dark, we are trying to go to sleep after all. There was some point I went to the other side of the house to scream. Today is already looking like a better day.
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