The car’s oil has finally been changed! I’m bad with car maintenance and waited so long the car would give an alert every time it turns on, then I still drove it like that for another three thousand miles. There will be cars in the wild that have trash bags over a window or a bungie cord holding the bumper up and I feel better about myself. As life improves it’s hard for the standard of living to not improve with it, I worry as much about overdue oil now as I worried about my bumper flapping in the wind then. Another example is how I used to eat and drink anything, now I think how rotten food might get me sick. It’s over now and I’ll regain a lot of space in my head where that worry was waiting. I can look up again and figure out what I need to focus on next. The trail blazing in the forest is going well, lately I’ve been working to cut feeder paths allowing everything to be connected to everything. With the new tree I revealed last week, I cleaned up some paths around it to create a new area or I think of them as rooms since they it feels like they have walls and a roof. This week I’m hoping to take the mower to the farthest corner of the property, that will be a happy day. The corner that’s equally far back but on the opposite side is close to where the neighbors house is, that makes it not so entrenched in woods and I’m less inclined to clear it out. My favorite neighbors are the ones I never see. My chainsaw still needs to be tightened, it came loose while working last week and is only a single bolt to fix. When I was done with the work I didn’t have the energy and now it sits in the shed.
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