29 May 2024

We’re getting bedroom furniture today, I’m currently waiting for the delivery. My wife and I have had an expression for years, “it’s happening”, we’d say whenever our plans are becoming real life. We said it last night while getting ready for the delivery and it struck me how much has happened, that we’ve been through so much together. When we started dating everything I owned fit into my car, and it wasn’t a big car, we had to move around the country a couple times as part of the plan. Our last house seemed like a forever home and led us to have a kid, but the job wasn’t right yet. That’s been corrected and in terms of the big stuff it seems like we’ve got everything we wanted from 10 years ago. Now we’re finally settling in with the small stuff. We’ll have dressers, currently my clothes get dumped in a rubbermaid bin after washing them and I think my wife’s sit in a pile. It’s not good to create a pile of warm fabric in your house, I know because over the years there’s been a number of pests found in them. And we’ve faced a couple natural disasters with the places we’ve lived. A flood in Houston had the right up to our doorstep and trapped in the Summer heat with no electricity. We put up with all the bad stuff and kept our eye on the prize, I’m grateful we made it through and to be where we are now. None of it feels real and I’m still processing our life. Most of my time is spent outside because sleeping in the dirt makes more sense to me than living in a nice house. People always talk about wanting their kids to have a better life, I’m happy they get to, but wonder about what is lost by not having to go through those struggles.