Last night’s sleep went well, now onto today. Bill Murray’s Groundhog’s Day is an important piece of media because it exemplifies real life. We can do everything perfect today and still wake up tomorrow with a blank slate. The kids having a goodnight of sleep yesterday doesn’t really effect the odds of them going down easy tonight. Habit is an important lesson to learn in this philosophy, even though each day is a fresh start, our habits determine where we start from. Meaning things will change even when we can’t see it. How does that help me now? The kids are growing up, some how my baby turned into a little human while I was busy, now I’ve got a new baby learning. Even though I don’t see results today from what I’m teaching them, I keep trying for that perfect day and get lost in time until years have pasted and the kid is repeating what I said in the past. In terms of rewards for me, there’s nothing, I can choose to participate in their life and be happy with their progress. Speaking of we got the elder princess’ first report card from daycare, she’s doing well. The teacher wrote, “Smart girl! Love her!” and it makes me happy that people would like to be around my kid, much better than if I was being told my kid is being destructive and socially isolated. Destructive and isolated seems to describe me, I’ve gotten better at controlling my bad behavior. After a decade of caring for plants and a dog, I’ve learned to nurture things, though I still isolate. Care for things can be so frustrating, spending so much time creating a wall for this weak creature. One day it emerges better for it.
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