The little princess work me up sometime during 5 AM. I started warming up a bottle and when I went in to give it to he, I was hit by that smell. She went poddy, so I changed her diaper. Thankfully the princess was quiet because she had a bottle of milk. The problem was timing, being awake that close to our normal wake up time means she might not go to sleep and having an event as active as a diaper change means she hasn’t slept since then. The night before had the elder princess barging into our room two or three times in the night until I took some time to lay with her in her bed; that’s kids life. A couple months ago, the baby was waking up ever three hours for food and I was begging to sleep as good as I’m getting now. When I talk about both the girls reaching kindergarten, that’s when I imagine I’ll have whatever a normal life is again. In the Fall they’ll both be in daycare for the first, so that’s really exciting. For now, everyday is chipping away at the newborn stage. The hard part for a parent is to remember who they were before kids, so they can return to it. There’s nothing wrong with fully committing to one’s kids, adults still have preferences in their activities and habits. Most days I watch a lot more cartoons and eat more baby food than I did years ago. The opportunities will come, it’s up to me to be ready for when they do and not to be checked out. I believe most people check out of life because after decades they forget where they were going and question why they even cared in the first place. These are tired ideas and nature is relentless.
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