14 October 2025

We’re back from a long weekend, we used the time off to visit the beach. We were in the Gulf of America and I was able to get that on a t-shirt. Along with a Gulf of America shirt, I’ll be keeping my eyes peeled over the next year or two for some good 250th birthday merch. The past weekend was possibly our best vacation yet and it had one of the scariest starts. About an hour into our drives we stopped to get gas and when it was time to get going again, the car didn’t. The battery died with no warning and the fear of being in the car with two and a dog with no way of moving set in fast. Thankfully, we couldn’t have broken down in a better spot. Not only were we in shade at the gas station, but across the street was an Auto Zone and two mechanics. We got a mechanic to walk across the street and check out the car. I was trying to start it while he looked under the hood and it was frustrating to have a push button start. With a key ignition, it is possible to pump the gas and turn the key in such a way to get over the hump of a weak battery and start the car. All I could do was push a button, there’s also a string of activity the car does before starting the engine like turn on lights, the display, and AC, thus destroying any hope to get the car to start. The mechanic helped us with jumper cables, but it didn’t work. We were able to get a new battery at Auto Zone, they drove it over and installed the battery. We got back on the road in under an hour, it was amazing and I’m still a little shock at the possibility of being stranded with the kids.

8 October 2025

Yesterday I was able to tighten the belt on diet for the first time in awhile, I have to actually look at how many calories I’m intaking to do it properly. I don’t have to expend to track calories, so my strategy was to not eat. This isn’t fasting, just a constant reminder to stop snacking. As a result to eating less I’ve been reminded why dieting is so difficult, today it feels like there’s a spike in the base of my skull. I once tried to cut all added sugar out of my diet and was faced with some terrible headaches. Modern foods are terrible addictive to the point it hurts to stop eating them, and it’s only getting worse with the rise of Ozempic. My understanding is the medication makes food less desirable and that cuts into snack food companies’ profits, they have been researching how to overcome the ozempic pandemic. The future to this thinking is the population will be eating food genetically engineered to overcome our biological controllers. The result is new illness mankind has never seen before. I don’t have opinion on the ethics of it all though my inclination is to stay in nature and the real world. That belief conflicts with my real life of computers and cars, but it’s an attempt to stay safe by continuing what we’ve done in the past. Still “real foods” are far from natural. The way modern corn looks like it does is by breeding it to have exponentially more food, the intermediate species in the process can’t survive or reproduce on their own, I’d call that unnatural. 

7 October 2025

This morning I noticed one of my neighbor’s houses had been TPed, or vandalized with toilet paper. Vandalize feels like a strong word for soft as bottom tissue and for Halloween the visual is appealing, still if it was my house and was done in ill will then I’d have no trouble calling it a crime. Luckily there was heavy rain last night and the toilet paper won’t be around for long, the remnants might linger for the month though. I’ll probably keep an eye on the house to see the decomposition process because I do like the idea of toilet paper decorating for Halloween, maybe TP myself with the family some day, it also seems like fun to throw the rolls. To be clear I did not attack my neighbors house, nor have I ever TPed a house, that’s why I need to imagine what it’s like. On further thinking my guess is it’s hard to throw the perfect toilet paper roll since it would ideally have a long tail as it flies. The reality is the paper would probably rip mid flight if the tail got too big and heavy. Now I’m thinking about how exhausting decorating is, why would I want to get out of bed in the middle of the night to go decorate someone else’s house when they won’t even appreciate it. The only bright side will be if it’s biodegradable and no one has to clean it up. Throwing paper towel rolls could be an improvement, if for no other reason than to confuse your enemies.

6 October 2025

Hit the ground rolling, had the dog waking me up at 4 AM again, this is why everyone’s cries for help have to be ignore. Help someone once and then they expected everytime. He’s a good boy and sleeps in his crate the full night, it might be him getting older. As the babies get old enough to sleep through the night, the dog will get too old to go all night without a potty break. The little princess might have a cold because she is fighting sleep right now. She seems fine, the only explanation I’ve got is her nose is stuffed up and when she lays down it becomes uncomfortable; lots of wake ups last night and this morning. The elder princess had another soccer game this weekend, she’s doing great. In free time we mostly play, she does lots of drawing and painting, but we have lots of activities at the house and rotate through them. I had my first religious teaching with the elder princess since as her father I take it to be my right to discuss such things with her. She know the world “heaven” due to school, it’s mentioned in teaching how to write numbers. Since she knows heaven I branched off of that, we started In the beginning God created heaven. She got to see my Bible and could notice the number 1 next to the words noting the verse number. Life is so interesting, the first book is Genesis and it’ll be awhile before she knows what that word means. There’s a long journey ahead of her and for all of us.

3 October 2025

Finally Friday, that doesn’t mean much to me since the weekend is when the elder princess is home all day. We do have a soccer game tomorrow which is nice. Sleep has been improving even though last night I was woken up by the dog crying to go outside. Everyone wants our wake up time to be 6 AM, but I won’t allow it. Even if we did start waking up earlier, they would push the time earlier still. We had the same thing going on with the cats wanting to be fed at sunrise. If I’m responsible to provide everything, then we’re moving on my time. The dog is a case where I’ll adjust to him since he’s over 10 years old and doesn’t wear diapers, I don’t want him to have an accident. If the dog goes too long without going to the bathroom than he could get some nasty looking stuff, so I take care of him. What else is going on in life? We’re in a lull until the next storm, things are going well and we continue to prepare for what life has to come. I always feel like I’m stuck waiting when the reality is babies, I had to slow down for them to grow. For years I’ve been stuck at that pace and will remain there for years, the payoff for that time is the best reward life has to offer, I just have to be patient and continue to work hard. My health has to be my main concern, it’s not glamorous but I will get my life back as the kids get older and if I’ve ignored my health the whole time there will be less life for me to get back to.

1 October 2025

Strange morning for me, the little princess did her usual early riser thing, I gave her milk and she went back to sleep. She woke up 15 minutes before my alarm, then went back to sleep and is still sleeping at the time of writing this 8:30 AM. A lot of my normal routines are thrown off by this, usually she takes two naps a day, so today might only be one. She almost certainly has wet bedsheets by this time and they should be changed anyway. Hopefully sleep will beget more sleep. Good work was accomplished yesterday with painting my armor, currently I was thinking the painting idea was so good maybe I should be completely covering the armor in paint, it would save me from any future rust. A benefit of having steel is to see the steel, if it’s all covered then it might as well be plastic. The paint I used already was a white primer by Rustoleum because I needed something to grip the metal, allowing future paints a material to grip onto. The Rustoleum is an oil based paint while my top layer is a shiny gold acrylic paint. A difference between acrylic and oil that people might not know is that oil paint breaths for sometime. The oil is releasing gases for days and weeks after use, that means I have to wait to finish with the gold. What happens if acrylic is put over oil too soon, and I’ve done this before, is the oil will continue to degas and acrylic paint is like a sheet of plastic, the gases have nowhere to go and break through the acrylic, showing cracks in the paint. 

30 September 2025

There’s so much to do in a morning, the babies are still waking up a little early, it’s like they had their own daylight saving hour. At least they’re well behaved, if left alone with food and a toy they will usually stay pretty quiet. We’ve have a special alarm for the elder princess that’s a star and it turns green when it’s time to wake up, for the half hour before that the star will be red indicated for the kid to stop, before that she’s just screaming in the dark. The elder princess has gotten good at telling me what the colors red, yellow, and green mean. After getting her to daycare and feeding the little princess I still have to write this before the little one goes down for her first nap. Because I can’t stop my brain from bugging me, this morning I was back to work painting the ampersand on my armor. The major painting is done and it looks like the right direction, I’m sure something silly will appear. Once the painting is done and dried I can put the vinyl sticker on and see how the idea came out. There are still many question as to what I’m doing and why, at the very least I want to talk to people. I’m very reclusive and most weeks only talk to babies and my wife. There’s also the constant quest to be better in competition with relaxing and enjoying myself, there’s no telling what the right ratio is. As I get done tasks, I’ll have energy for more, like this painting that sit in the back of my mind the list of tasks is exhausting even when I’m not working. Everything is good, I just want to be prepared.

29 September 2025

After a relaxing weekend, I’m getting to get back on the grind. I recently learned “nose to the grind” refers to a knife grinder having to focus on their work, they would put their nose to the grindstone to get a better view of the knife and angle they’re sharpening. Over the weekend the elder princess had her first soccer game, we never even went to a practice. She did great even though she’s still learning not to use her hands, but she can kick and run with the best of them. Later that day, she was in the garage running back and forth, so the girl has good cardio. Yesterday we had a car picnic at Sonic, that place is made to be enjoyed in the parking lot. I put up the back row of seats and the elder princess went back there to have a private room, it seemed like such a happy place for a kid. We’re already back at it today, had to send some money to buy a homecoming shirt. Plus these kids were both awake at 6 A.M. and my alarm doesn’t go off until 7, so it was very unfortunate. Oh babies just go back to sleep for a short time.

26 September 2025

Happy Friday, this morning I got the little princess saying, “Happy Friday”. The teacher picking her up was pleased with the greeting. Saying good morning or some other happy greeting is world building or happy world building, making those around you have a better day, week, and life. The teacher enjoyed it so much, she then took the princess to greet another teacher, continuing to spread the joy. Then those humans recognize this child made them happy and increase their preference towards the child. There’s no telling how much benefit this creates over time, especially since we’re talking about a three year old. Maybe someday that teacher writes a recommendation that gets the princess her dream job, or maybe that tiny display of kindness saves the world from destruction. There’s no telling the future, but the best we can do is to act in a way that we are trying to make things better and we can’t account for how other will interpret our actions. We find solace by knowing our intentions and that other’s opinions don’t matter. In other news I got my armor cleaned up, you can’t even tell the day before it was painted. The armor itself holds something like scars and the markings on the metal tell the story of our relationship, I’m getting to know that piece of steel like the back of my hand and the more time we spend together the closer we get. Alternatively the armor is a partner at work that is always having some problems, it can’t even sit for too long without gather rust. Something has got to be done about this guy, but his replacement of kevlar doesn’t have the attractive shine. Beauty takes a lot of work.

25 September 2025

Yesterday was a strange day, it started off rough, got better, and ended rough. There was a half day of daycare which worked out fine, but as I sat down to write I was also checking my bank account and saw some fraud on one of my cards. Seeing someone has violated my security is never a good feeling, still I did my due diligence by reporting it and I’m confident it will all get sorted out. That put a delay to my start though I still managed to get on the exercise bike for a session. After that the half day was up, we picked up the elder princess and went to Mcdonalds for their playpen. There were a lot of kids playing there and even some from the same class, it was something to do since the rain came in heavy. Once we were home and the kids were getting settled I was doing some work in the background painting a giant ampersand on my armor to match my shirts. The process was making a stencil off the shirt, using a paint pen to mark the outline and painting it in. All that got done through the day and I was feeling good exercising, getting work done, and was ready to enjoy watching the rain when I realized I put the ampersand on backwards. While the paint was still slightly wet I needed to remove it all. Today I’ll work on finishing that clean up and reapplying the protective coat for the steel. The practice run went well, the final draft should be even better.