20 February 2026

After dropping off the elder princess a song came on the radio, Ludacris’ 44 bars. That got me thinking about the theme in rap to make songs that are all about bars as a display of physical dominance; or lyrical dominance. The concept is something like 4 beats in music make a bar and the song is bar after bar of pure rap. The song is pure in the sense there is no hook or chorus, the music takes a backseat to lyrics. One of my favorite songs is Jadakiss’ 40 bars of terror and a more recent take is Redman’s 80 barz, both artists are hall of famers. This type of song is not commercially successful, that’s why I suggest it’s about establishing dominance. A successful song in the industry follows a formula. A simple example looks like all songs being 3-4 minutes long with a verse, chorus, verse, chorus, and then maybe a slight variation on the chorus again. There was an executive that would speak to classes explaining the business side of the art, he’s passed now and I can’t find his name. The point is executives that risk millions on new art, don’t want it to be very new, they want another hit. The artists, or in this case rappers, especially male rappers want to see where their skills measure against another artist irrespective of industry intentions. The way they do that is rhyme after rhyme, there’s physical endurance to do that 40 bars straight. Then a master of the craft would find a whole song of ABAB rhyme scheme boring. Making patterns more complicated, like with piano, begins to use math. Taking 4 bars with 4 beats gives an opportunity for at least 16 rhymes, maybe the first bar and the fourth bar use ABAB to mirror each other. Inside the pattern can be a new pattern which opens up to infinite possibilities. 

19 February 2026

I had to make this drawing to explain my new pull up technique. Now, I’ll try to add words to the explanation. Most people think of a pull up as the body hanging loosely from the hands. People should bare in mind muscles only pull and most are only connected at two places, so they they only pull in a straight line. Chest muscles pull the shoulders forwards and back muscles pull the shoulders backwards. The dead hang from the bar leaves the tension on shoulder muscles, a small muscle compared to the back. The first step from a dead hang is to use the shoulder muscles and latissimus dorsi(lats), muscles on the outer back, to rotate the entire body as close to parallel to the ground. Engage the core to keep legs up. Once parallel, the back is in position to pull in a straight line, making most efficient use of the effort. The reason I got hurt doing pull up was Mike Mentzer. He was a bodybuilder in Arnold’s time, and trained Duran Yates who ushered in the new age of muscle giants. Mike was a successful bodybuilder on his own, but Arnold’s politics shunned him. The philosophy that Duran Yates proved true is intensity matters. Arnold was promoting hours in the gym everyday, while Mike said only a half hour a couple times a week. The difference is Mike went to exhaustion in that time: maximum intensity. I was using one of Mike’s techniques to increase intensity when I got hurt. The reason I got hurt is because that was my first set, I’m older and need to take time warming up. Stretching is always good, it will take a heavy focus to release the current tension in my neck.

18 February 2026

The little princess work me up sometime during 5 AM. I started warming up a bottle and when I went in to give it to he, I was hit by that smell. She went poddy, so I changed her diaper. Thankfully the princess was quiet because she had a bottle of milk. The problem was timing, being awake that close to our normal wake up time means she might not go to sleep and having an event as active as a diaper change means she hasn’t slept since then. The night before had the elder princess barging into our room two or three times in the night until I took some time to lay with her in her bed; that’s kids life. A couple months ago, the baby was waking up ever three hours for food and I was begging to sleep as good as I’m getting now. When I talk about both the girls reaching kindergarten, that’s when I imagine I’ll have whatever a normal life is again. In the Fall they’ll both be in daycare for the first, so that’s really exciting. For now, everyday is chipping away at the newborn stage. The hard part for a parent is to remember who they were before kids, so they can return to it. There’s nothing wrong with fully committing to one’s kids, adults still have preferences in their activities and habits. Most days I watch a lot more cartoons and eat more baby food than I did years ago. The opportunities will come, it’s up to me to be ready for when they do and not to be checked out. I believe most people check out of life because after decades they forget where they were going and question why they even cared in the first place. These are tired ideas and nature is relentless.

17 February 2026

The one pull up I did yesterday went well, but when I woke up this morning my injured muscles was aching again. I’ll take more time to rest it as this muscle affects my neck movement. The muscle feels like an old injury from when the elder princess was a baby. With a newborn, the goal is to do whatever makes the baby happy and quiet. After finding something that works, like rocking the baby a certain way, that becomes the goto technique. Always holding the baby in the same army cause a muscle to strain and there’s no rest with a baby. With my right side disabled, I had to hold the baby in the left and since they want comfort, a new way of holding upsets the baby. I don’t think I ever healed from that injury because my neck never had the same range of motion again. By taking all the time I need to heal, I’m hoping to help that old problem. My push ups seem mostly unaffected and I’m hoping to start recording my push up project next Monday. There’s still a lot of writing I need to do, starting will help to get the juices flowing again. My newspaper is coming along, the newsstand arrived yesterday and I still need to build it. Last night, I was working on the website for the paper. I have half of it done and I think I figured out how to present the other half. For my kingdom, today is the beginning of the week after yesterday’s holiday. For me personally, today is more like a Saturday, or the first day of the weekend. The only other person home is the little princesses, so I will take this time to do nothing and rest.

Patience

What makes patience a virtue? Humans live in a world constrained by time. We cannot be everything all at once. Growth takes time and built with intention progress goes slower. The virtue comes from recognizing we need time and to stop being envious of someone else’s real, or imaginative, present time. Then we can realize that it’s not the destination we seek, but the journey. Change is progress on our journey. Who we are today is the collection of the millions of steps we took before. A reward would be hollow without the personal transformation. What makes patience a virtue is faith in God’s plan for us.

By Their Fruits WAR ep 82

Crusader reads Matthew Chapter Seven, exploring key teachings from the Sermon on the Mount. It emphasizes the importance of self-reflection before judging others, the necessity of seeking and asking for guidance, the challenges of following the narrow path, and the significance of recognizing true prophets by their fruits. The chapter concludes with the metaphor of building one’s life on a solid foundation, highlighting the authority of Jesus’s teachings.

13 February 2026

Yesterday, I did some pull up in between my writing and hurt something in my back. Thankfully my queen was able watch the princesses, so I could lay in bed. I’m not fully healed, but hopefully by Monday I will be. All the time in bed gave me ample opportunity to think. My writing on Sunday will be it’s own segment, my current idea is to write about a different virtue each time. The idea for a newspaper is separate and I got most of the formatting figured out yesterday. Now all I need to do for it is write words. The title of the paper will be The Cornerstone as it will be the root a lot of my ideas will stem from. The unexpected time in bed allowed me to get further prepared for the paper than I planned and I don’t know when I’ll actually release an issue. The topics I’ll cover are still broad, like any paper is general news, starting is best first step. The purpose of starting this is to get involved with the real world, talking to citizens about the issues affecting us. The question constantly plaguing the public is, “What can we do?” The answer starts by finding out what I can do, when I reach limits I need help with, then I will know what to tell people looking to help their community. Being press will add validity when I want to interview people. Interviews are another project I’m building to with my show, I’d like to document the stories of veterans I know as well as current and former community leaders. They teach me and I teach whoever will listen.

12 February 2026

I need to start work on my magnum opus. It’ll take some time to get started since I don’t know in what medium it’ll be made. Always best to start and great work with push ups and pulls ups. Now that all the blood has rushed out of my head I can think clearly. The next project I’m working on does involve push ups, so it’s actually fair to start with that. Our house has been dealing with sickness for a couple weeks, it’s felt like that long since I’ve had my mind to think. For Project 22, the new name of my next project, I’ve been gathering notes on the 20 individuals I’ll be speaking about. At current count I’ve got 13 written, that’s a good start. My due date will be 22 days out from Memorial day, May 25. That gives me until at least May though I need to keep pressure on; we’re already a month and a half into the new year. At some point I’ll try to make time for more writing. I’m still working on what I want to do for Sunday posting. There’s an idea to start a newspaper that is appealing to me. The physical newspaper might be the most exciting part to me, the problem with that I foresee is the paper. The bigger the paper, the more it has to be folded, which takes up real time. The idea opens me up to new avenues of promotion I need to explore anyway, it’s helpful to have a product I’m proud of when I go bothering people for views. 

11 February 2026

Saw a video today of Bruce Lee and Muhammad Ali talking about fear. The video might have been AI, but I wanted to think on fear. Through out life I’ve asked myself what am I afraid of and it’s not to brag that I fear nothing. For me the question is one of preparedness, fear is a weakness that can be exploited and I want to strengthen any weak points. I don’t have any well defined fears as my thinking has always been there’s nothing to fear, the worst that can happen is death. Some may argue there are worse fates than death such as pain and exploiting loved ones. Those aren’t problems if the individual disconnected the mind from reality. I have nothing, so nothing can be taken from me except my life. With Jesus, I don’t even have to worry about my life. To run towards gun fire, I disconnect, I’m just running like on a treadmill and the bullets are no different than dust in the air. Social anxiety is something I deal with, the thought of a simple conversation makes me sick in the stomach. I overcome public speaking the same way as any, disconnect and believe there’s no difference between talking alone or in front of a crowd, and I’ve been able to perform in front of groups as large as a couple hundred people. Fear still finds ways to creep into life like being afraid for my daughters. Again, my reaction is fight over flight, that I must put in safety nets to prevent my fears from manifesting.