4 March 2026

The difficulty of having new ideas is to everyone else they’re wrong ideas, at least that’s how people justify never having thought them. They don’t want to consider there’s a path they didn’t explore that came to a new conclusion. The leader has to motivate people with an idea they’ve never heard before and then lead them through new challenges. All the while the followers will be complaining and struggling against their own leader. The Israelites said to Moses, “It would be better we were still slaves in Egypt where we had food, then to starve in the desert.” I want everyone to be a star, but the reality is most people are below average. What I’ve come to accept as a leader or a social media influencer is followers have to be below the leader, if not the roles should be reversed. A struggle is created where the leader is hated for instructing people against their intuition and the followers are hated for needing to be told what to do; yet they need each other. I can’t tell you where we’re headed, only that we need to escape to the desert. The thing that doesn’t exist yet, we’re going to build it. When asked how I know it’ll work, I don’t know, but am saved through faith. After 40 years of wandering, Moses lead his people to the promise land, but never entered it.

3 March 2026

Yesterday, I mentioned it’s hard to get people to think which got me thinking on thought. I always said I started thinking when I was 17 and my first decision was to drop out of school. One thing I knew was I didn’t like it there. Then I had to figure out how to feed myself and the Army looked cool. Once in the military I began taking my studies seriously because sleeping in a hole in the desert makes one reconsider life choices. Once at University I met Socrates and loved him and philosophy. Most people hate everything about it, but there is a blood sport to discourse. Socrates made people think, made me think in new ways I never did before and it was painful. Learning something new is hard, whether that is attempting to memorize or walking through a new destination. The brain can be overloaded with information, that’s where I see the brain as a muscle that needed to be exercised. Age 25 is when I started to take reading serious, before then I would literally travel the world to avoid reading a book. I started with high school reading I should have done 10 years prior, graduated college, and came to know Nietzsche. Intellectuals should cower at the name. From there I learned a lot, Nietzsche’s idea of the Ubermenche, or Overman, motivated me to be better in every aspect; taught myself to paint and play piano. Currently, I’ve started studying for the LSAT. There was a practice question on what is “proven” in a writing. When studying and learning a new perspective to see life, I felt the same pain trying to understand Socrates’ way of thinking. If anything, I’m speeding up and intensifying.

Content

The act of feeling content is a virtue. Whether an individual is on their way down or climbing up, a person must be content in their present moment or they always be chasing a problem. At no time will they be happy. Being content means realizing things can always get worse. Even when anything in life would be better, to be thankful for the position to desire more. We’re still here, make peace with that. If the storm is not calmed within, we will carry it everywhere, effecting everything. Being content means gratitude for all we have, even if all we have is suffering.

Faith Hath Made Thee Whole WAR ep 84

Crusader explores the teachings and miracles of Jesus Christ as recorded in Matthew 9, emphasizing faith, forgiveness, and the call to serve. It provides insights into biblical stories, the significance of faith, and the mission of spreading the gospel.

27 February 2026

After each writing, I paste it into a LLM to get tags for SEO. For yesterday’s writing the AI prompted me to reach out to a crisis hotline and my queen checked in to see I was OK. Yesterday was not a reflection of how I felt in the moment, but those were dark thoughts in the past to give people a glimpse into world they might not know. Most of society lives in the middle, by definition, it’s where men and women play nicely. While I may be able to create success in the comforts of society, it’s not where I’m comfortable. The call to adventure is to explore what’s beyond the horizon and that draws me to the extreme edges of society. There’s no laws or decorum, people are killing each other over a mound of dirt; where might makes right. The purpose of a hero is to out and bring back treasures like the known world has never seen. The oil in our cars or any of our many resources comes from taming the wild. Eric Slover was awarded the Medal of Honor this week for his service flying a helicopter in the Maduro abduction where he was shot multiple times in the legs. The cheap oil at the pump is paid for in blood by men like him, yet the reality of his actions would scare and disgust a majority of the people benefiting from it. We want the hamburger, but don’t want to know how it’s made. I get it, it’s rational. When John Henry beat the railroad spike driving machine, he went home that night and heart exploded. I always wanted to be John Henry, or Achilles. How can a rational person understand that? The inevitable result of going on one too many adventures.

26 February 2026

Still pretty tired, so I thought I’d give the reader a look into the tired and depressed mind. There’s no point to go on. The harder I try, the harder it gets. There’s never a finish line or even a goal that feels like winning. Someone new will come around to cause problems. It might be better to give up at this point and stay in bed. Someone else will have to feed the kids breakfast and get them to school. It’s better for them to move on from me now, I’m already gone. I’ll need food, but I’m done eating. No reason to get out of bed anymore, I’ll just soil myself. Done moving, done thinking, now to wait for the end. Pain can be ignored and after a day in bed I’ll probably enter some hallucination. Any goodbyes? I’m sorry I wasn’t strong enough to make it. It’s better to give in than fight. Or is it? Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles and by opposing end them. That’s Hamlet’s to be or not to be. The attitude of giving up doesn’t help anyone and turning a useful human into dead weight is a problem for anyone invested in this world. When tired, the best advice came from the military. Take a knee, face out, and drink water. You’ll be alright.

25 February 2026

For the exciting conclusion to the plumber saga, he identified the problem, but couldn’t fix it. There’s an electrical issue with the well pump. Today is feeling like a hit the wall type of day. I’ve been running hot for awhile now, with the plumber yesterday, rearranging furniture Monday, and daily push up videos, I’m tired. Mondays and Tuesdays are supposed to be my weekend and I didn’t use it to rest. Don’t expect much else to get accomplished this week, or even next week, I need to slow down. Speaking of not slowing down, I’m also working on this new business idea. I was telling the plumber about starting a cafe and he said next time maybe I can make him a couple of coffee. In my head, my response was, “I don’t know anything about coffee.” Now I see how that would be confusing to people. Coffee is 99% water, a resource nearly free to me. The purpose of coffee is it’s cheap, easy to make, and slightly addictive. My ideal costumers don’t trade money for food, they have time to spend. Holding a drink is an excuse to waste time in a new place. The product I’m interested in is environments, or as The Cornerstone masthead says, “Truth, Faith, Community”. Once in my building, people are subjected to the sight, sounds, smells, taste, and textures that I provide. Of course I want to have good coffee and success in whatever I attempt, but if we don’t see the bigger forces at play, we are at the mercy of their control.

2/24/26

The push up challenge is off to the races. Yesterday’s video and today got recorded without any problems. I’m currently waiting for a plumber who is supposedly on the way. Since last week they’ve been telling us almost everyday that someone is coming out. I’m feeling lucky today. Yesterday we had a constructive day in the living room. My queen had gotten new furniture, rug, and lamps. The only thing that stayed was the big couch I had to move off the old rugs to vacuum. The two old rugs were moved to some new locations and we laid one big beautiful new rug. I took a picture of the room to get a scale of the big rug, they really do tie the room together. My queen was nice enough to assemble the new furniture, so we moved everything into position and it looks great. The plumber is here.

23 February 2026

We had a good weekend, uneventful. Another episode of my show produced and distributed. Yesterday, when recording I decided not to do a live show at the same time and will not be going back. The reason I wanted to do live was a YouTube metric of watch time, streaming live can be helpful. The downside of being live is my anxiety is way higher, doing the show yesterday was a breeze and I won’t be hurting myself anymore. Other business that was accomplished was registering my company for an LLC. The Cornerstone Press is the company and website of the same name is where I’ll be digitally publishing my newspaper. The newspaper hasn’t officially started yet. The business is for a cafe, a place where I can distribute the physical copy of the newspaper. People can get hyped up on caffeine and then rally the troops. That would be one dimension, another would be coming together and making connection within the community, so as a city we need less intervention. We went to eat at a Mexican restaurant this weekend and it’s a good looking business. Now that my head is in that game I’m taking photos and mental notes for the direction I’d like to go. The first project I have to complete is my 22, 22 pushup videos. I’ll start the first video today. Once my head is cleared of one project, I can put more energy into others.