29 September 2025

After a relaxing weekend, I’m getting to get back on the grind. I recently learned “nose to the grind” refers to a knife grinder having to focus on their work, they would put their nose to the grindstone to get a better view of the knife and angle they’re sharpening. Over the weekend the elder princess had her first soccer game, we never even went to a practice. She did great even though she’s still learning not to use her hands, but she can kick and run with the best of them. Later that day, she was in the garage running back and forth, so the girl has good cardio. Yesterday we had a car picnic at Sonic, that place is made to be enjoyed in the parking lot. I put up the back row of seats and the elder princess went back there to have a private room, it seemed like such a happy place for a kid. We’re already back at it today, had to send some money to buy a homecoming shirt. Plus these kids were both awake at 6 A.M. and my alarm doesn’t go off until 7, so it was very unfortunate. Oh babies just go back to sleep for a short time.

26 September 2025

Happy Friday, this morning I got the little princess saying, “Happy Friday”. The teacher picking her up was pleased with the greeting. Saying good morning or some other happy greeting is world building or happy world building, making those around you have a better day, week, and life. The teacher enjoyed it so much, she then took the princess to greet another teacher, continuing to spread the joy. Then those humans recognize this child made them happy and increase their preference towards the child. There’s no telling how much benefit this creates over time, especially since we’re talking about a three year old. Maybe someday that teacher writes a recommendation that gets the princess her dream job, or maybe that tiny display of kindness saves the world from destruction. There’s no telling the future, but the best we can do is to act in a way that we are trying to make things better and we can’t account for how other will interpret our actions. We find solace by knowing our intentions and that other’s opinions don’t matter. In other news I got my armor cleaned up, you can’t even tell the day before it was painted. The armor itself holds something like scars and the markings on the metal tell the story of our relationship, I’m getting to know that piece of steel like the back of my hand and the more time we spend together the closer we get. Alternatively the armor is a partner at work that is always having some problems, it can’t even sit for too long without gather rust. Something has got to be done about this guy, but his replacement of kevlar doesn’t have the attractive shine. Beauty takes a lot of work.

25 September 2025

Yesterday was a strange day, it started off rough, got better, and ended rough. There was a half day of daycare which worked out fine, but as I sat down to write I was also checking my bank account and saw some fraud on one of my cards. Seeing someone has violated my security is never a good feeling, still I did my due diligence by reporting it and I’m confident it will all get sorted out. That put a delay to my start though I still managed to get on the exercise bike for a session. After that the half day was up, we picked up the elder princess and went to Mcdonalds for their playpen. There were a lot of kids playing there and even some from the same class, it was something to do since the rain came in heavy. Once we were home and the kids were getting settled I was doing some work in the background painting a giant ampersand on my armor to match my shirts. The process was making a stencil off the shirt, using a paint pen to mark the outline and painting it in. All that got done through the day and I was feeling good exercising, getting work done, and was ready to enjoy watching the rain when I realized I put the ampersand on backwards. While the paint was still slightly wet I needed to remove it all. Today I’ll work on finishing that clean up and reapplying the protective coat for the steel. The practice run went well, the final draft should be even better.

23 September 2025

One of the reasons to write is because any day could be our last and apparently today today could be the rapture, so Jesus please protect my family and I, other than that there’s not much to do. People were even selling their belongs to prepare for today. The Bible says no man will know the hour, that’s all I need to discredit any claims at the end of the world. Still it’s interesting to think about what it would be like, considering people’s preparations. Going with what the Bible says in the rapture those that are “saved” are saved. Early on and maybe before things start, Christians are whisked away, that’s why there’s nothing to worry about, we won’t feel it. Then a bunch of bad things happen on Earth, demons are allowed to run wild for a little bit before everything goes down. A personal belief of mine is the war against evil is never ending and even in death warriors are able to continue the fight. With a fresh suit of armor and heavenly body we can swoop down on wings with spear in hand. A strange trait in myself is a desire to fight, fighting is a bad thing, even in self defense I think the morally right thing to do is not fight. Still the act of fighting is fun, it’s hard for myself to understand and why would a destructive trait be innate? For defense is a simple explanation, but I think there could be a better one. It relates to challenges and wanting to overcome them, or to give everything one’s got to “test their metal”. A telling of history could be men going out to find new adventures and women caring for the home, providing growth and stability, new resources and mended morale.

19 September 2025

We saw alerts to boil our water since there is a leak somewhere, it’s not a big deal to boil water though it does seem like it should be a bigger deal in terms of news coverage. We saw the message on a couple different news Facebook pages, no telling how many people have seen it or how many will listen. There probably should be more information provided as well. Last night, I commented on one of the posts to see if we still need to boil water. Supposedly someone replied although I can’t see any of the comments. The whole situation feels strange and hopefully is nothing. In other news I’m getting close to a point I can record my show again, the camera is working and now I’m figuring out the microphone situation. I need a cordless microphone because I sit far from the camera and I never liked how the microphone takes up a big portion of the screen on a lot of recordings. There’s no path or example that I’m following, doing things my own way causes me to frequently ask what am I doing? There isn’t an answer, I’m trying to make something new that means it doesn’t exist until after I’ve done it. In the mean time there’s a bunch of equipment strung through out the house. Truly the hardest part of art is being deep into a project and everything being a mess. There’s a lot of work to get finished created, but the largest amount of work is polishing to the final product that other people get to see. 

18 September 2025

On some real life news, we got back our first ever school photos from 3k, that means 3 year old pre-k. The princess looked cute as usual and a little shaken, I imagine the experience was like a factory floor where the teacher gets a kid in position, cheese, move along and on to the next one. Probably the first time my girl has experienced something like that. The use of “my girl” reminds me that she’s been saying to the cats, “my boys”, I don’t know who influenced who. We’ve also been getting into the Halloween spirit, about once a day she lets me know she wants to go trick or treating. Yesterday, we got information on the school’s trunk or treat, that’ll be a lot of fun. Seems like I’ll by with the car and the little princess while the elder walks around, so we have to get some decorations. A nice feature of the day is we can shop for car decoration kits that will have everything for event. The only other news from yesterday is I assembled a sort of gymnastics set with rings, it pairs well with the trampoline and we plan to get a balance beam. The elder princess is very athletic, she’s been climbing and jumping on me her whole life. While helping her use the rings I could feel muscles activating that she probably didn’t know existed and was a little scary for her at first. In time I’m sure the equipment will get a lot of use as it’s part of the garage which is my space, the kids will want to do everything in there to get closer to me. The elder princess even gives the heavy bags an occasional push, then it turns into an obstacle course.

17 September 2025

I had to take some time off after the incident that happened last week. Usually, I try not to talk about current even. Of all my writings in 2020, I didn’t talk about covid-19 once, but this event happens to be a personal interest of mine. Reminds my of Eminem’s comeback album, Kamikaze, a lot of the media was talking about something I was already interested in. Obviously I’m not alone as they both have tens of millions of followers, and it’s hard to figure out what happened. I don’t mean what took place that day, but rather why do I feel effected, when I stop watching someone’s content they’re gone anyway like it’s the same thing. Norm Mcdonald was a big inspiration for me and one day he was suddenly gone, I still watch his videos. When talking to a lot of friends they expressed anger over the situation and I felt that too, perhaps over how unfair it. I had been sharing a video of a speech from Oxford, to exemplify how this was one of the best speakers America, and the world, had to offer. He was also outspoken of his Christianity, which media doesn’t like people talking about Jesus. Jordan Peterson is another intellectual I’ve been a fan of for years, but he’s unwilling to call himself a Christian, to me that’s where he falls short. There’s a danger to preaching Jesus in public, that’s part of what I’m processing. Everyone needs to be accepting of everything, except when a person shares Christian views, then they’re a problem and it’s never been more obvious than now. Seeing as America was founded on Christian ideals and the settlers were saved by following the Bible, those views have been tested and proven.

10 September 2025

On the edge of mid life, I told myself it’d be nice if I live another 37 years. As I’m trying to exercise more, the increase in effort causes stress. Yesterday was a push ups day that left my wrists feeling injured, even pushing down the top of a soap dispenser hurt. They day before I was doing squats and then it became a challenge to sit on a toilet, to be honest the toilets in my house are too short. Continuing my regiment is necessary to feel healthy and loosing weight will make everything easier, but eventually feeling like out of shape will be indistinguishable from getting older. The injuries start coming and they don’t stop coming, still there’s nothing to be done except be more active now. As Hamlet said, “Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles, and by opposing end them.” Meaning we suffer either way, from a life long fight or a slow death. It’s probably obvious that I’m running low since my writing seems darker. When tired, I relive past mistakes, what a nasty trick of the mind. Then I look forward, how to get out of this mess? Rest, rest and run, then repeat.

9 September 2025

Continuing where I left off about my garage gym, here’s a photo attempting to get most of the room in one shot.  In the future, I’d like to extend padding on the ground. The blue on the ground is 1 inch thick padding and I ordered two more sets of that in black. Hopefully the new pads are the same as the old because I was waiting to purchase more since the price had gone up and then they sold out, some how the ones I ordered ended up being cheaper than the original though they’re a different brand. Eventually, I’d like to add a second layer of padding, though I’m not rushing into that. What I do need to focus on is building a desk. As I prepare my equipment to start recording again, the pile of cables and devices keeps growing. Currently most of my work is in a cabinet or a couple different places, I need it all in one place and visible. There’s even more equipment that I will need, only everything has to get connected and tested for me to know what’s missing. From the last time I was recording, I wanted a teleprompter to be able to read my script, that would require an additional monitor to read from and more equipment to connect. Another project to get started on is decorating my armor. There is a pattern on my shirt that can be seen on the front and the back, so I want the logo on the front of the armor to preserve that idea. First I’ll have to get paint specifically for metal to prime it, then I can add color and now we’re talking about a couple months from now. Who knows what the world will look like at that time.

8 September 2025

After what felt like forever my punching bags are hanging again. There was a whole ordeal to get them up, but first I’ll cover last week. The baby wasn’t sleeping well during the night and during those times it’s a struggle to function, even last night she had some middle of the night wakes. Things should be improving as everyone gets healthier, which leads me into exercising more. The garage is coming together, on one side is my throne set up and the other punching bags, when riding the bike I can look back and forth feeling good. Getting into the installation, the reason it took forever to put up is it required drilling into concrete. Masonry work takes extra energy I haven’t had, on top of that I needed to get a hammer drill that can handle the work. The first drill I got was the cheapest Walmart had, about $30, I would have been very happy to get the job done for that much. I did get a carbide tipped drill bit that cost almost as much as the drill itself, but the combination only got about an inch into the cement. My next attempt was going to Tractor Supply though I couldn’t find a hammer drill, so I went back to Walmart to buy their more expensive drill. It’s still Walmart and about $100 for a hammer drill is still pretty cheap, these fancy drills get get up to several hundred easy. The new drill was battery powered, after several recharges and struggling, the holes were deep enough. The rest went up quickly and I technically put the beam sideways, it’s now up and usable. Being able to hit things makes me a happy boy.