17 April 2024

My bees are doing well, at least they seem healthy and active. The photo I posted shows that they’re growing sideways, the black frames are for them to build their honeycombs on, but they want to BE independent. This was the third times I’ve interacted with the bees and it’s still an unsettling endeavor, I haven’t figured out a solution for my long hair in the beekeeper’s hat. Because I can’t brush hair out of my eyes with the full suit on, I’ve tried wearing a sweatband and a baseball cap, eventually they get dislodged and start floating around the beekeeper’s hat along with my hair. It’s hard enough adjusting to being in the hive, add on occasional blindness and I’m trying to get out of that situation as fast as possible. The queen is free and I assume she’s still in the hive or the rest would leave, she could be staying in the perpendicular combs which means I won’t be able to find her without breaking their structure. There hasn’t been enough time for me to be able to identify the queen and I wouldn’t be able to see anyway, it would be nice to check on her whenever I open the hive. In time I will get more comfortable exploring, for now even with the protective layers I try not to touch any bees, there has to be a natural instinct that is telling my body “no” because even as I write the thought of putting my hand in there makes me uncomfortable. The bees are eating, so that’s good, I replenished their sugar water yesterday and they still had a little pollen patty left. It had been eight days since I last checked on them and the sugar was empty, my plan is to go back this weekend to see how fast they’re drinking and to leave some more pollen patty. 

16 April 2024

Yesterday was fairly restful, the pool guy never showed up, apparently they had someone quit last week creating scheduling problems. That doesn’t bother me, in the past it would have, any time I’d have an appointment I used to stress out over it the entire day of and a good deal before hand. Having a kid has put me on a track in life that keeps me moving, meaning if I’m tired or stressed out, the baby still needs things. Now I don’t care about such things, I’ll worry about the baby, let them worry about the pool. Along with that yesterday we found out that the new baby we’re expecting at the end of the year is going to be another girl, my baby girls are going to be so cute playing with each other. They’re so beautiful that I’m sorry you don’t get to see them, I’m sure you’ll understand the internet is no place to share such things publicly. Life is hard to understand, so much has changed from when the first baby was born and especially since I was in the military, yet I’m still the same me. Envisioning life it’s easier to think that what is me as my life’s plan, the plan for me has always been the same though the person in the moment has changed and I had to do step 1 to get to steps 2 and 3. The person in the moment doesn’t control the plan, but makes decisions in those moments. A kid looks at the adults around them to get an understanding of what it means to be an adult. At this point in my life I can’t say I’ve met anyone like me or doing something similar to act as a guide, that’s why I began making my own entertainment, the only way to let that light shine through.

15 April 2024

Where does the time go? I blinked and the weekend was over, still we had fun. My sister in law visited and the podcast is doing well, link below. We record on Thursdays and I release the episode on Saturday, this week will be our 10th episode. From the beginning my goal has been to reach 100 episodes, right now my intention is creating a new habit. As that time passes we will figure out what we’re doing, I’ve been developing kingly attire and my brother serves as a jester. We haven’t figured out a schtick for Flizo yet though I’ve been recommending he look at Jedi imagery. Since I have long hair I want a hat to hold it back, I’m now at the point that if I want something I have it made to my specifications, so I’ve been working with an artist to make a logo that I will have on the hat. This weekend we got a sketch of how the logo will look and I’m pleased with it. Everything is moving along, I might even be on Apple podcasts soon. That’s a little joke because Apple has been giving me constant headaches trying to use their services. This week looks pretty simple, a pool guy is coming today to get us started on maintenance, a plumber comes tomorrow for a broken toilet, and there is a lot of grass that needs mowing. Since I wasn’t at this house last Fall I don’t know what vegetarian grows up and falls back in Winter, that means I work to keep everything down until I get a better idea of the entire growing process. 

12 April 2024

This week was intense, or as my wife put it, “What week isn’t exhausting?” She’s right, often when I walk the land I can begin to be overwhelmed with the amount of work there is to do. There isn’t as much that needs to be done as I imagine, I could let the woods be woods and the grass stay as grass, then why did I come here? I’m comfortable controlling that fear that bit by bit the work with get done. I’m here for a reason, if I show up everyday then change will happen. I said on the podcast that I’ve given myself up, that’s how it feels, in order to tame the land, raise children, and maintain a happy marriage, caring for those things comes before myself. That doesn’t mean that I don’t care for myself, but I don’t let the exhaustion get to me. Similar to doing a road march all through the night when there’s no telling what’s around or how long we’re going, just keep walking. When the big feels too big, focus on the small, one foot in front of the other. Yesterday turned into an incredibly frustrating day, I had to go to the health department to get this state’s version of my child’s vaccination records. There seemed to be a computer error and the person was trying to tell me that we needed another shot to be up to date, despite that shot not existing and the government regulations saying we had all the shots we needed. She couldn’t conceive that the computer was wrong, eventually I went to a different county health department and they overrode the computer. Additionally I had a dentist appointment where they tried to give me and charge for a cleaning I never asked for and then I never saw the dentist until over an hour after my appointment. Those situations test patiences, in the moment I want to destroy the good things I have and walk away from it all because I’m annoyed. That’s not why I’m here though, I must stay true to the path I’m on.

11 April 2024

At the end of the day yesterday my giant green thuja trees were delivered, I had already picked the baby up from daycare and would have to put her to work in the fields. The trees are small for now, but this time next year they could possibly be taller than my peach trees they grow so quick. At a mature height the thuja can get 60 feet tall, for reference a walnut tree grows to 40 ft, apple tree to 20 ft. There aren’t a lot of trees that grow this tall, fewer are evergreen and grow fast. There may be a risk that I plant them too often, luckily they’re so big that a little goes a long way. Because the trees are small now, I didn’t need my auger to drill a hole for planting, the mattock was the tool I reached for, or as I like to call it a pick axe. The mattock was my first tool to get comfortable with, as a teenage before I could swing a woodcutting axe I would swing the mattock into a tree stump. Now I can split logs all day and only needed three swings to plant three trees. Then I gave the trees some fresh soil, mulch, and added them to the drip irrigation line. Nature was also nice enough to provide rain last night giving the newbies we soil. The danger with drip irrigation is leaving the water on, when I watered the peach trees a couple days ago I forgot to turn it off for around an hour, usually I water for 10 minutes. Someday I’d like to set up timers so I don’t have to worry about any of that. There’s always improvements to be made, I’m grateful to be able to manage as much as I do, that I can plant trees while the baby plays in the grass. The don’t didn’t even go near the road, I think these new trees will teach him a new boarder. 

10 April 2024

In such a rush to get started work this morning I forgot to write before stepping out. By the eyes of the outside world not much has happened, despite hours of mowing I’ve yet to cover the whole yard and I’m not trying to yet. My primary concern is cutting back the over growth on the boarders and in the woods. With my mower I’ve also made several passes with hedge trimmers and a chainsaw. This morning I destroyed two more hearts of darkness, that’s what I call the brier patch that is old enough to have branches thick as a young tree. The hedge trimmer cuts through the viney brier revealing the heart and I need a chain saw to finish it off. This being the beginning of Spring all the plants are at their weakest and this is my best opportunity to not lose any ground the rest of the year, soon I will have to wait until Winter to continue this work. A great achievement to me was clearing a path on the eastern edge of the woods. Today I was mowing around the parameter of the property to asses what needs attention. I like to be able to walk everywhere on my property which means no branches hanging below six feet, we may be years from that. Beyond the path I made today there is still part of my parameter too thick to pass and the deeper I get, the thicker it is. The woods are looking lovely to me though anyone else might not notice I’ve done anything at all. What is the difference between cozy woods and wild ones?

9 April 2024

Releasing the queen bee went well and hopefully she decides to stay. The bees didn’t eat as much as I thought they would, which was good, I was afraid they’d go through all the food I gave them and be starving in a day because I don’t know how much bees eat. I had left a pollen patty on top of the frames and have a frame filled with sugar water with an additive inside the hive. The bees seem to have been eating from both food sources and had even started building around where the queens cage was before I freed her. Ideally the queen will nestle herself in between the frames and they’ll start building a normal structure. I noticed what the bees built was pure white, my understanding is the white color is because they’re food source is white sugar. There’s plenty of flowers where I live for them to get pollen, but in these beginning stages and later during Winter it is recommended to supply them with food. Having food available at the hive will decrease the chance any bee goes out for food and can’t find their way back. The photo is of the cage the queen came in. Today my big goal is the drip irrigation, there was some rain this morning which is helpful since I didn’t water the trees yesterday. The rain shouldn’t effect setting up the irrigation though I wanted to do some mowing afterwards and we’ll see how that is effected. The grass isn’t so thick yet as to disrupt the mower, but I wanted to clear some paths in the woods that have lots of sticks, the extra moisture might even help in that there won’t be a lot of dust kicked up.

8 April 2024

Another good weekend, our first normal weekend at the new house as my wife has been away doing new job training until now. The bees are off and running, on Saturday I dumped three pounds of bees into the hive and they’ve been looking good. Once I’m done here I’m going to release the queen from her cage and resupply their food. This will be my first look at how much they eat, it might even increase as they get settled in. My first time handling the bees was unnerving, even though they can’t reach me anytime a bee would land on my mask, my body would set off alarms. As with overcoming any fear, the more I work with them the easier it will be. My thuja evergreen trees only shipped today, it will probably be two days before I have them, as I set up my drip irrigation this week I want to extend it to where the edge where the evergreens will be. When Monday comes I have a lot of plans for what I want to get done this week, but Monday is really my first chance at alone time. I will take today to rest from any big projects like the irrigation, there’s no rush on it and I need to have rest days. The other big thing I had planned this week was mowing, I’ve only mowed once and that was only a portion of the yard, I still need to mow everywhere I can in order to understand what maintaining the yard will entail. Over the weekend I continued battling the heart of darkness in my woods. Previously the old thorny plants I cut down were less than an inch in thickness, I found some that were possibly over two inches thick and cut them with the chainsaw. Over the next couple weeks the brier will fall back.

5 April 2024

This morning I had a missed call from the post office, they had received my bees and I went down to pick them up. I’m happy to get them sooner than later even if I had to adjust on the fly, holding the baby in one arm while picking up a package of bees. Surprisingly the bees weren’t in a box of cardboard, the shipping label was on the side of a mesh cage for the bees and I’m sure the people at the post office were happy to have it out of their building. My thinking is to wait until tomorrow to let them out into the bee box I have, currently I’ll let the bees stay the night inside the box inside their cage. Tomorrow I’ll have more time to focus on releasing them. Since my plan was to mulch my peach trees tomorrow, I went ahead and did that today. Thankfully the baby was good while I worked, she had picked up a landscaping flag and had fun sticking it in each pile of mulch I made. We even had the dog out with us while working, unfortunately there’s no fence between my yard and the road, so I have to keep a close eye that no one gets too far. Once I have the thuja trees planted, the will at least act as a reminder to the dog not to go farther. My wife complimented me on how much faster I’ve got at digging holes and planting trees, I’m grateful and amazed myself because not only have I improved but the situation has gotten more complicated with having to juggle a child at the same time. The biggest improvement in ease getting rid of the hill from the old house, now the wheelbarrow is helpful on flat land.

4 April 2024

The peach trees are in the ground and wouldn’t you know it as soon as I was done I got an email about a flash sale on giant green thuja trees, they will start my privacy wall of trees. Thujas are a fast growing evergreen that has a mature height of 60 feet, walnut trees are 40 feet for reference. Another email I got was that my bees shipped, but they aren’t expected to be delivered until Saturday which isn’t great for the bees and is annoying since it’s shipping from the same state as me, maybe a three hour drive away. I don’t have the highest expectations for these bees and in the future I won’t have them shipped. There is also a different method of buying bees called a Nuc, short for nucleus, that has a higher chance of success. In the future I will drive and pick up a Nuc. For now we’re celebrating peach tree beginnings, over the next week I’m going to get some mulch around the trees base to hold in moisture and set up the drip irrigation. Since I know the thuja trees are on their way I’ll extend my tubing to their future planting site. I did give the peach trees their first watering with a hose and might go out tonight for a second pass. For now I’m going to take a rest before it’s time to get baby.