We will be warm soon

Big thing for me today was writing down my ideal schedule for a day on my white board. My hope is to work on making that my actual daily schedule through habit. I don’t know how to talk about having the ability to make my day exactly as I want it to be and stillContinue reading “We will be warm soon”

Life’s Knot Fare

I don’t want to be a downer or sound like I’m complaining, especially after what I said yesterday. To be clear I love life, being alive is one of my top 10 favorite activities. I stop to smell the roses, I dance when I hear a catchy tune, but that doesn’t mean there’s an easyContinue reading “Life’s Knot Fare”

789

Everyday I have to ask myself, “What am I doing?” I guess that’s why or at least one reason I got suicidal ideations. That question is impossible to answer in the grand scheme, but if I don’t have an appointment that day then the answer is something like, “Staying alive.” Doing basic functions like eatingContinue reading “789”

Early Rising for Easy Raving

Were that these writings be a journal or an exercise in creativity. I supposed they’re just a place for me to dump an overflow of thoughts. I did some stretching last night that I would like to make routine. The idea being similar to this writing, that I move my muscles and it pushes anyContinue reading “Early Rising for Easy Raving”

Can’t get rid of me that easy

I took some time off to think. I had talked to Ben about working more, then I got a strange message from him that made it feel like I was expected to work more. I didn’t like that. I understand where he’s coming from that he wants to get his work done, but I wantContinue reading “Can’t get rid of me that easy”

Not till the appropriately sized woman sings

Tomorrow will be a good date. 2’s and 0’s flying all over the place. Today went really well. The exercise Ben started me out on was thought provoking. As I was leaving he said, “Sometimes it’s harder to figure out what needs to change than it is to change it.” Then he mentioned Yoda. NowContinue reading “Not till the appropriately sized woman sings”

Serenity in Troubled Waters

The veil is lifted and what is seen? Fortune and fury. We bury the dead and cheer the child for walking. For what can a child do but follow in the footsteps of their elders? My footsteps will lead to Humbaba. When Baba is you Barbara Ann is too. Shakespeare wrote so well, it’s hardlyContinue reading “Serenity in Troubled Waters”

From Pharaoh to Frying-pan

It’s morning, my wife said she didn’t understand what I was saying yesterday. When I feel like I’m making the most sense seems to be when I’m at a loss. I’m trying to think about my word choice more selectively. Its possible I’ll get lost down my own rabbit hole. When tripping I say everyoneContinue reading “From Pharaoh to Frying-pan”

Every Word Counts

All kidding aside, I’m trying to be grown up about this. Serious solutions surrender themselves to soldiers of salvation. When the sun reaches it peak, it’s job is only half done. Day is only half of a day, and night has its own beauties. A tree will grow in the night or day according toContinue reading “Every Word Counts”

That cloud looks like a bluejay

I’m afraid this morning page has a bit of a prompt, I wanted to write about how much I love my wife and was thinking that it would be fun to go through Maslow’s Pyramid of Needs as jumping off points for what she gives me. I do worry though that maybe I love herContinue reading “That cloud looks like a bluejay”